Tuesday, March 31, 2009

What year is it?

I go to my blog to read my friend's blogs. I feel guilty every time, thinking I should do a post or at least show some pics. I don't have hardly any brain energy left by the end of the evening to come up with two thoughts that make sense. (I just had to take a deep breath to figure out how to even write that) That's pretty fried!
I'm good though, thanks for asking ;) Life is good, hard but good. I never knew boys could be so loud, high energy and heavy footed. My middle child (and he is so living up to the term middle child) was running back and forth around me and my kitchen island today that I finally yelled "stop it", "stop running and get control". Very earnestly he said "I can't". It was true, he could not stop himself. So I sent him outside, where he seemed pleased to be able to go. Ahhh, some days I want to take our babe and go hide out in a dark closet and rock him for as long as I want. After having my third child, I am calm and relaxed with the whole baby thing. I am in absolute bliss with this baby, no worries just enjoying him to the fullest. The catch now is how to be good mom to all three at the same time, whew! Still trying to figure this out.
So I'm still here, alive and well. Some days hanging on by a thread and other days I wouldn't give up any of the chaos. I am learning to let go of any preconceived plans for my day. This is huge for me. If I can't fit it all in, it's okay, don't push. When I push I end up with an unhappy 5 year old, 3 year and 4 month old, no need for that!
So as I may be breaking for a bit with blogging, I will venture back in I'm sure. The next post may be about their high school graduation but I will be back.

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9 comments:

Our life.... said...

well, look forward to you coming back :)

melissa said...

i love hearing how you're loving being a mom to a babe, 3rd time around. it seems like it just gets sweeter each time. and i hear you on the feeling overwhelmed. can't wait to see you around the blogosphere again!

Sleepless in Greensboro said...

I echo all that you said. Loving the "babyness" of the third, but caring for all of them at the same time. Well said! I look forward to hearing about their graduation. :)

Monique said...

Thanks for the update! I know our lives are very different, but I do understand the total exhaustion thing. Sometimes there is just not energy at the end of the day to say anything to the outside world, except "see you tomorrow." Big hugs to you and your boys.

mari said...

I can sooo relate, and the third has not yet arrived! After a day of non-stop questions and energy, Josh and I tried to watch our first movie in awhile last night. We got about 20 minutes in and one of our sweet girls was having a tummy ache and could not go to bed. I wound up falling asleep with her in our bed watching Backyardagains...for the x teenth time.I haven't been blogging much either. Also exhausted at the end of each day:) XOXO

emily said...

I love this post. I felt the same way with my 3rd. And now that he's nearly 3, I still do. I have enjoyed his little-ness so much more than with the twins. I was ca-razy with them.

Good to see you here again, Meredith. Now if I could just see in in real life :)

Joylynn Rasmussen said...

I've really enjoyed reading your blog (just found it today) Meredith!

allboys4us said...

I also just found your blog (on the LPM blog comments) and loved your post, which I could so relate to...It's encouraging to know that I'm not the only one that feels that way...often I am just too tired to think and I'm hoping I will be able to carry on an intelligent conversation again someday! So thankful to have read your thoughts today!
~Dorla

Marge said...

this is my first time reading your blog. i discovered it because only really cool people use words like uber, and it made me happy. if you figure out how to parent children of different ages while feeling like you are giving each child what they need, please write a book and send it to me. i have two, and i constantly feel like i'm torn between the two to meet the neediest needs first. thanks for being an encouragement.